If not for the skinny jeans…

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While at the gym the other day with Nick, I could see that I had gained weight.  I hadn’t realized that it had gotten that bad.  I was looking at myself thinking, “oh god… have i seriously killed months of hard work just by not paying at much attention??”  I already know how much nutrition is as far as getting fit, and I honestly didn’t think I had gotten so far away from my 80/20.  So I went ahead and weighed myself.  


158 lbs 😦

Now, is that number making me depressed?  Am I saying I am a failure because I’ve gained weight? No and no.

It was a wake up call.  As I’m writing this, I’m making mental notes to repair my slip-ups.  I know that things have been way off schedule for me since Link’s visit in May, but for a while I was still able to manage.  Actually, while he was here, things were great.  It was after that that things started to fall apart.  I saw the signs and didn’t act on it.  Now, I’ve fallen much farther into this “pit” and I’m telling you know, I will climb back out.

I may be covered in mud and exhausted, but I will find my way back out.  I may be frustrated and grabbing for every single branch that lends it’s way towards me, but I will get out.  My nutrition will get back to normal and I will start feeling healthy again.

On a side note: My marathon training starts next week and to tell you I’m nervous doesn’t even start to come close to how I’m feeling about it.  The mileage is 3/3/3/6.  I know I’m not running for time, but I’ve never run over 6 miles.  There will be lots of mental struggles involved with this run.  With this training comes even more reason to fix my nutrition.  I can’t run at my best if I’m not fueling my body with the best fuel I can.


This weekend I didn’t eat clean, didn’t eat bad.  I was mindful but I was also letting myself indulge.  And every single time I did, I felt like crap afterwards.  This is a good thing.  I want to remember why these foods are “bad” for my system.

Being the week before my Whole30 challenge, I am using it to get my shopping list together, arrange the pantry, freezer and fridge so it’s friendlier for what I am about to do, and mentally prepare.  My nutritional intake will be on point, and will be 80-90% clean.  I’m hoping this will make the transition into the challenge less “shocking” on my system.  My psychological system that is…

Just as a reference point:

Addiction – (broadly) persistent compulsive use of a substance known by the user to be physically, psychologically, or socially harmful

I’ve got addiction that are not food related, and for the sake of this blog I will list a couple of them.  Smoking (broken!!), sugar, simple carbs, weighing in on the scale (broken!!), and compulsive spending.  If you’ve been reading my blog since the scale challenge you know how hard of an addiction that had become for me.  Its results determined my outlook for the entire day!!  I now weigh in once a week, but take into account numerous other factors as well as what non-scale victories I’ve had recently.  If you have no idea what challenge I’m talking about head over here to catch up.  When it came to quitting smoking, I knew the only way for me to succeed was to quit cold turkey.  I couldn’t ease out of it.  So far so good, as I haven’t had a cigarette since March 2013.  As for the compulsive spending, Link and I have set up a separate checking account for monies not included in bills and fixed expenditures and are basically utilizing an envelope system to help me break that one.  Now, I’m hoping, the Whole30 Challenge will help break my addiction and cravings for sugar and simple carbs.  Time will tell….

You don’t need to share your addictions with me but I’m curious to know if you’ve found any particular way to help stop them….

For those of you who have just started following me, first, THANK YOU!!  Second, I signed up for my first marathon the day of the Boston Marathon Bombing.  It’s my fight against fear, in a matter of speaking.  I will be running San Antonio’s Rock ‘n Roll Marathon on November 17, 2013.  Roughly 28 weeks away.  The course for this year hasn’t been released yet, but I found an awesome link for last years course.  My new mantra for my runs: Respect the distance!  You’ll see what I mean once you watch the video 🙂


**edited : I attempted to embed the video but wordpress says no.  You can follow this link to see the video!  I’d love your feedback and words of encouragement because I’m certainly going to need them LOL


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