Posts Tagged ‘plan’
Phentermine
Posted August 2, 2013
on:I have been having some issues recently with body image and weight and motivation. I have friends who are very supportive and will do everything they can to help me. I have friends who don’t really “get it” and try to be supportive but don’t really know how. I have friends who are jealous of my successes and have openly told me so. I have tried to be as honest in this blog as I can be. I’m a work In progress and I’m pretty sure that’s how it’s always going to be.
What I don’t like it how low I think of myself on a daily basis. No number of compliments will break this feeling of I’m constantly letting myself down. The guilt I feel on any given day is ridiculous. I’m a work in progress. I am not looking for compliments. I am trying to get my brain to do this major switch that it just doesn’t seem to want to do. Yea, part of this is from my weight. But only part.
While unpacking, i found my still good prescription for phentermine. For those of you who don’t know, it’s an appetite suppressant. I am not one who believes in the magic pill. But, I do believe it will (and has) given back to me my lost motivation. So, I’ve decided that since I am not training at the level/intensity I was training at before, I am going to finish my prescription. There will be nay-sayers, but this is my choice. I’m at an all too familiar feeling of “I can’t lose weight past 155lb.” I know I’m capable of losing it, now I just need to figure out how to get there.
The Piper has called
Posted April 21, 2013
on:and I need to face him. I am craving sweets like crazy again. That may just be me I’m realizing. Without thinking I had a mini blizzard on Friday night then a small ice cream from Rita’s on Saturday night! I seriously didn’t even realize I had eaten ice cream two night in a row until this morning when I was trying to remember how long ago it was since I had that blizzard. I am noticing that the weekends are just flat out hard for me. During the week, I’ve got a routine and it’s easy enough to stick to. I feel so in control.
Come Saturday though…
ugh.
I don’t eat breakfast right away because I have a weight watchers meeting at 8:30. So I postpone it until 9:30 or so, which means I’ve been awake for roughly two hours at that point without breaking my fast… and I’m starving. I either turn to Dunkin Donuts for my skim milk iced coffee with splenda and an everything donut with a little bit of light veggie cream cheese, or once I get home I eat a huge bowl of cereal with whole or almond milk.
Then maybe it’s because I ate so much later than normal, but I don’t feel the urge to eat lunch until closer to 2pm or so. Of course I don’t always make the best choices, like a basic sandwich sans veggies, with some other simple processed snack to go with it. I’ll snack around 4 or 5pm with my nut mix, and since my Mom tends to cook on the weekends it’s not always the friendliest to my goals.
for example: Saturday night we had oven “fried” chicken, mashed potatoes and broccoli. Sunday night we had SOS (otherwise known as creamed chipped beef on toast).
I don’t pig out at least. But I don’t make something healthier for me. I try to make the best of it… wait. That sounds like I don’t like the food. Of course I like the food! It’s delicious! I love it when my Mom cooks! It’s just not always something I would have made having certain goals in mind.
Finally, I want to point something out. Have you noticed I haven’t mentioned water once? That’s because I rarely drink anything on the weekends! I have no idea why! But it may also be why I want sweets as bad as I do. It may be a fall back for me since I love fruit and fruit has a lot of water and maybe if I eat some fruit I’ll rehydrate a little… Well, it’s a worth a thought at least! LOL
I planned out this coming Saturday and Sunday and I have every intention of sticking to the plan! Normally I leave spaces open for them to kinda “play” with. I can’t do that anymore. I check out all the way on the weekends and that’s not how I’m going to better myself. This is my challenge right now….